Where do I begin?

For weeks I’ve been wondering where to start. Where to pick up and begin in this space again. It’s hard when you haven’t written in a long time. When you realize you’ve let the crickets chirp too long in a space you promised you’d never let grow quiet.

I’ve sat down several times to write, but each time I sat in front of my computer I thought, But where do I begin?

Then I remembered: this is not a place of perfection, this is a place of poetry. A place where my heart can connect with yours and yours with mine, and ours with His.

So let’s begin again. Here. Now.

My boy is in kindergarten. My boy who has challenged me and softened me and made me dig deep within myself to discover who I truly am.

This. Boy.

Let's begin again here, now.

This boy who swings higher, jumps farther, runs harder, and giggles brighter than any child I’ve ever known.

Whose spirit alights when he holds a new book in his hands. When he masters a difficult route on the climbing wall. When he makes a new friend.

This boy.

This boy who now walks the halls of a K-12 school with a “Jack-pack” on his back and tells me “Oh mommy, can you please not pick me up after lunch because I want to stay longer.”

He was so thrilled when he found out he could stay longer.

This boy who still holds my hand and tells me I’m silly and wants to watch our shadows grow tall as we walk side by side in the setting sun’s light.

This boy.

 Arrow flourish

My girl is in preschool, making new friends and enjoying the independence this new stage brings.

This. Girl.

This girl who stands strong by her big brother’s side through times of both joy and anger, victory and defeat. Who sees him in such a way that makes me feel, no, makes me know that he will be ok. That he will build lasting friendships because she has taught him what a true friend is.

This girl who is sassy but soft, vibrant but shy.

Let's begin again here, now

This girl who loves chocolate and popcorn, family and music, laughter and dancing.

This little love who frolics with ladybug wings and says, “Mommy, you’re beautiful.”

This little one who feels deeply, loves fiercely, and lives confidently. Who sees the world through the eyes of an old-soul. Who understands well beyond her years. Who makes me laugh and cry and see that for every dark moment there a dozen bright ones just waiting to outshine it.

This girl.

Arrow flourish

And oh, this baby. This baby who is crawling and laughing, standing and babbling.

Let's begin again here, now

This koala bear snuggle bug baby who nestles in my arms and makes me never want to let him go.

This gentle soul who brings calm to our clan of bold personalities.

Who delights in the journey, wherever it may lead and reminds me that new joy dawns each day. And that God has His hand in it all.

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7 thoughts on “Where do I begin?

  1. Erica

    I love love loved your opener. You began in just the right place. How are you guys liking your home and neighborhood? I’m happy things are going well. And I’ve gotta say, I’m continually inspired by your daughter (in addition to you, of course!) as a sibling and caregiver.

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    1. Katie Post author

      Oh Erica, thank you for your encouragement! Our new home is WONDERFUL. We live in a family-filled neighborhood with some of the kindest neighbors we’ve ever had on all sides. We are so happy! Thank you for seeing in Kristen what makes her so special to us <3

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  2. Evie

    It’s so refreshing to read your words, Katie, because it instantly becomes clear that you see each of your children for who they really are. Their personalities, their interests, their preferences…all of it! It’s easy to kind of look past children as underdeveloped human beings, but I appreciate that you do the opposite, and enjoy your children in all their glory. Thanks for the perspective!

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